you

i had cremated my ashes long ago.
the river of time had swallowed them,
and i was lost forever.

then your eyes blinked.
the edge of your smile fell on
and all stopped.
the currents froze,
gave up the dead.
the ashes soared.

blood, the red blood swells.
sweat drips.
heart races.
fingers grope.
musk squirms.
night ferments.
day dazes.

fist squeezes.
eyes shut in silent prayers.
knees surrender.

you rise and my world dances and rolls on.
i don't want to die again.

and then it follows

few people are made for each other. they meet and the long pending jigsaw puzzle is solved. clarity shines and hearts sway to each others tunes. the world starts to roll again...

Moliere

worth watching!!!

the last 15 minutes translate the movie to a different level (or may be a depth), a true classic!

Moliere Movie

in love

i mistook the mirror for my lover and kissed it. i was in love.

please pull them out

please pull those earplugs out.

it is all here, waiting to be heard,
the rumbling ocean,
the calling sea gulls,
the whistling breeze,
the swaying leaves,
the revolving earth,
the scorching sun,
the gliding stars,
the beating heart,
the smiling kids,
and the silence within...

just a co-incidence (i know)

look carefully and you might discover it again:

"Obama Biden" is unusually close to "O(s)ama Bi(n) (La)den".

although the later is out of headlines, it might help the democrats to introduce the fear factor subtly and win the game...

btw, i have alrady got a call from fbi intelligence wing. they are ready to premium process my H1B visa.

is goodness a sign of weakness?

a lot of people assume that people who are being good are trying to hide their weakness.

actually Dinkar always seems right to me on this issue:

"Kshama shobhti us bhujang ko jiske pas garal ho.

Uska kya jo danthin, vishrahit vineet saral ho"

where?

how far should i go to find you?
you must be here, some where close by.

the more i search you, the more i end up looking into the mirror.
you must be here, some where inside.

the more i look at myself, the more i discover you.
where has the mirror gone?

then

when it all calms down then nothing descends...

what if they vanished from my life?

imagine the plight if my objects of hate and anger vanished from my life! how will i express my other side of emotions then? i need them too!

Bucket List

...well...
if you haven't watched this movie yet then go watch it right away:
Bucket List

:)

so shall you reap

we the humans shall get all back. the damage that we do to nature will come back to us because we and nature are the same. we are the same because we are all part of a self sustaining system called earth. we are damaging ourselves.

now when the damage boomerangs back to us, we humans all will be really hurt. once we are gone, the cancer of earth will be gone. earth will revive and heal itself. why? because the earth has all the time in this world, we humans don't.

my grave

the more i dig my grave, the more it appears as not sufficient.
soon i will end up digging the whole universe, will it be enough then?

mr. brooks

mr. brooks is a very well made psycho killer movie. kevin costner and his alter ego william hurt have done a superb job! their conversation is brilliantly written, just pay good attention to it!

great movie! :)

the good and the evil

the good and the evil are nothing but the two strong and prevalent states of the mind:
the romantic and the realist.
the war continues and will continue for ever because they live under the same roof, in very close vicinity. they are bound to clash. they will keep switching their identities and fight to occupy the mind. it cannot be stopped or prevented because the territory they want to occupy itself is bound to topple them in turns... ah, the fickle mind!

the dark corner

there is somebody in that dark corner,
i never go close to it because i am afraid of darkness.

from a distance it looks familiar,
the silhouette reminds me of somebody.

sometimes it just looks dead,
but it does move the other times.

it doesn't want to attract my attention,
it just wants to live in those dark corners.
it is me who wants to attract it.
is it my past, my memories?
is it me, who pretends to stay in the darkness?
who is it?

Is Hibernate really productive?

The more I try to learn Hibernate, the more I get repulsed. It started with a noble idea. But like J2EE, things soon started to get out of control. Now, I see so many contradictions in Hibernate. I think these tool designer should know where to stop. Hibernate is a tool not a language, the learning curve is curvy and full of "can be done in multiple ways". Well, a tool should stick to one way and not try to behave like a language.
How can a tool be really productive if you are supposed to study a book of 900 pages! Yes I am referring to the book written by Hibernate's author...

rediscovering wheel

i keep hearing it during my weekdays that i should not rediscover the wheel. that instead of rediscovering the wheel i should just take its wheelness for granted and apply it to design better solutions!
to be honest, i don't understand this approach. without rediscovering the wheel how will i genuinely appreciate its wheelness? my applications don't look convincing because i know that the building i am erecting doesn't have sufficient ground. it is not going to rise high...

under my feet

while i stand on the snake, it continues to eat its tail...

xdoclet gotcha

if you have a doclet used like below, you will face a bug which creeps without throwing errors during code generation:

/**
* @hibernate... some doclet
*/
//some innocent looking comment block
public getSomething() {
}

you would expect some code generated relating the hibernate doclet with the target method. but it won't. that innocent looking comment block(one line or multi line) has done the damage. the worst part is that xdoclet won't fail while "compiling".

however, if the doclet and the target method are separated by empty lines then xdoclet behaves intelligently.

the road of mind

the road started alright from home.
roses and marigolds on both the sides,
after all the house-keepers took good care of the garden.
the garden surrounded the road and
tried to stop it from merging with the outer harsher roads.

the roads don't stop,
they run away, they meet and they part their ways.

the pretty well kept road met the others,
it became them and forgot how it looked with those roses and marigolds.

it got better with running, it turned pitch black.
it simmered in the summer and skid in the snow.
it splashed in the rain and ran with the wind.

it really got better with the running,
now it can run both ways.
it can run both ways but it doesn't know why it is running.
now it has got its children too, they all run together.
they all run, but they don't know why they run.

the roads don't stop,
they just run, they cross and they switch their looks with others.

it ran high into the higher dry lands,
it ran low and steep into the wet sea shores.
it ran dangerously by the edges of the canyons,
it ran into the vast safe plains with green grass all over.

when it ran enough, one day it met itself.
it doesn't want to run anymore,
it wants to turn into one where it started from.
the roses and marigolds are still there waiting for it.
but the big, dark and thick road is too big for the home now.

the roads don't stop,
they never meet their ends, they just split and merge again and again forever.

The Shawshank Redemption

watched this masterpiece: the shawshank redemption

it is a must watch movie for all those who always crib: "why me? what did i do to get this? i never hurt a snail, then why am i being punished?"

this movie is about hope! this movie is about the wish and will that keeps a hopeful man going towards freedom, one small inch at a time!

oh i just loved it! :)

to make or to break

there are thousand ways to miscommunicate but there is only one way of conveying the message right, and there are million ways to break but there is only one to make it: honesty.

:)

madredeus - guitarra

how does he do it?

i think Ghulam Ali can see the musical notes. it appears that when he sings the notes dance in front of him and lure him to be picked up next! what a delight! :)

a perfect music collection of my taste

suddenly i am hooked to this site: hummaa.com

try it you will enjoy.

the only thing that could be improved is the performance... :D

my fave hindi movie music composer

if i had to list the best of hindi movie song composers it would start with the greatest:

Madan Mohan - this man knew the perfect relationship between words and notes; they always complemented each other. in his compositions the notes always tend to tease each other while they move along a complex and dangerous cliff of hindustani classical music, always close to the edge! i just love them :)

the mind is dumb

the mind is a very dumb entity, it does whatever i ask it to do! it is a perfect echo machine, it just reflects. there is something which is beyond it, it flashes to me every now and then...
when will it stop playing hide and seek with me?

the beauty

beauty's most important characteristic is freedom.
when it breaks away it turns beautiful:
a wild mustang at its pace,
a flower swaying in the breeze,
a formally attired lady but dancing without any inhibitions in her office...

the strategy of repeating patterns

when the opposite forces work on me in parallel, they make me go round and round. they are always two, they always come in pair. they never work in the same line of action, they work on two different hinges. they are equal, opposite and just complement each other!

i appreciate one because i appreciated the other last time. together they make me switch my focus between them, tic-tac, tic-tac, tic-tac... and i never cease to stop!

they never want me to meet them together. because they know that if i meet them together, they will lose their powers, i will be liberated!

the grip

they don't hold me, i hold them

the mortal thoughts

sometimes it appears that the world that I have been building within is already destroyed. I had left them bustling with certainty and energy last night, today when I went back it was just an empty deserted baseless thought...

why do they repeat

why do they repeat themselves?
day and night
my breaths
the waves on the shore
life and death

times and desires

All can see past, all crave for it.
Few can see future, all crave for it.
All can see present, few crave for it.

the crossroads

i don' t walk down the road and stand confused at the crossroads.

i carry them with me all the time while i sit still in time...

the moment of truth

the moment of truth will descend when i will see both faces of the coin at once.
all the windows of the room of my mind will be wide open:
the dirty dust and the sweet fragrance of time would enter the room together and they will leave the room together.
the room will remain as it was and then the truth will descend...

but till then

my fists, they are clinched.
my grip, that looks strong.
my jaws, they can bite the time and hold on to it.

but how will i defy the death?
when it comes i must let it go.
the fists would open.
the grip would losen.
my jaws would open to exhale the final bit of life.
time, then u may tick again.
but till then...

no regrets by edith piaf

NO REGRETS


No! No regrets
No! I will have no regrets
All the things
That went wrong
For at last I have learned to be strong

No! No regrets
No! I will have no regrets
For the grief doesn't last
It is gone
I've forgotten the past

And the memories I had
I no longer desire
Both the good and the bad
I have flung in a fire
And I feel in my heart
That the seed has been sown
It is something quite new
It's like nothing I've known

No! No regrets
No! I will have no regrets
All the things that went wrong
For at last I have learned to be strong

No! No regrets
No! I will have no regrets
For the seed that is new
It's the love that is growing for you

job sucks or rocks?

did a google on "my job rocks" vs "my job sucks", here are the surprising results:

• the ratio is around 1/8!
• the "rocking" search took more time than "sucking" - google search is intelligent!
  

about 6,720 for "my job rocks". (0.26 seconds)

about 53,700 for "my job sucks". (0.23 seconds)

bruce lipton's new biology

just chanced upon this superb lecture by Dr. Bruce Lipton! the way he deals with the subject definitely makes you work hard, really hard to reject his ideas...

watch him here and have fun!

This is a two part lecture, you will find the second part on the same page...